[At first Yuto only observes Yuya in silence. Even when the other says he's fine, the tears falling down from Yuya's eyes concern him. Sometimes he really wishes he knew what his facetwin is thinking or feeling. Maybe it would've been easier if he did.]
There is no need to thank me.
[He doesn't feel like he's done anything to be thanked for. Isn't it natural to stay by your friend's side when their in pain? Yuto only wishes he could have done more.
There's still worry in his eyes when he speaks again.]
...And I'm not surprised. You should still get some rest.
I should... but I don't know if I can. I think I'm still kind of... in shock, you know? It's not just my legs changing... everything inside moved. My stomach is in knots. [To say the least.]
And you're back. I'm really happy about that. For a second, I thought it was like last time...
[Yuto gives him a sympathetic look.] I see... [And falls silent. There is nothing he can do now anyway.
At the other part Yuto frowns a little.]
You mean like when I lost against Yugo? [He pauses for a moment.] To be honest I was more than sure it would be the end for me this time... But I'm back. [Again.
Yeah... but it's more than that. Yuto suddenly showing up during something intense, it's actually... a lot like how it was when I was carrying your soul. It's kind of interesting.
[They really are drawn to each other. Though it may be the fatigue getting to him that's making him talk about this... he thinks about it a lot when he's around Yuto, but it's usually too weird to bring it up when he's the only one remembering.]
Sort of. I mean, it did always get me out of the problem... but, I never remembered what happened. I think we combined, somehow, like both of us were controlling me. But...
During the Maiami Championship, Academia invaded, attacking duelists in the middle of the fray - they put the Knights of Duels into cards, and all of a sudden I saw your memories of Heartland - then it went black, and when I woke up my friends were holding me down. Four of them.
Mieru said she saw darkness in me. It was something separate from both of our souls, though...
[So, that's what he meant when he said he didn't want darkness. Painful and scary things happen when they combine, but he doesn't blame Yuto for them.]
[It feels like he's just heard too many worrying things at once. They combined? And Yuya didn't remember what happened? And also...]
You... saw my memories?
[His memories of Heartland? Does that mean he saw the destruction? Or...
Yuto's soul was inside Yuya, so maybe he shouldn't be this surprised that his facetwin could see his memories. Still, it doesn't feel right, mainly because... he has just too many painful memories. There's no need to burden someone else with them.
But the other part makes him stop thinking about it. Darkness. So that's the darkness Yuya was talking about. And remembering how scared Yuya was of it, how much he didn't want it, Yuto frowns, guilt showing on his face.]
[He wanted to tell him more about the memories, but Yuya looks at a loss at that. He can see why Yuto would blame himself, but without remembering what happened, it's hard to know for sure. All he knows is that he never blamed him, so ... he'll just tell him what he's thought on for a while.]
How could it be? Even if you were in control, you don't want to hurt anyone... you wouldn't do anything bad. I trust you.
But that darkness.... I have no idea what it is or why it's there. For all I know, it was in my soul before all of that happened. There were a few weird things even before then, and things I couldn't remember. Like, I still don't have any idea where Pendulum Summoning came from. I don't know if you knew this, but everyone said I discovered it...
[He hopes that Yuto won't keep feeling guilty over this. That wasn't Yuya's intention at all.]
So if it's anyone's fault, it's probably mine - I'm sorry.
[...They both trust each other then and Yuto is very glad to hear that. But even if Yuya says none of it is Yuto's fault, he still feels at least a little guilty over it. And this feeling won't fade away so quickly.
Hearing Yuya's last words, Yuto shakes his head.]
No. You have nothing to apologize for. [He says firmly, but his gaze is still filled with concern.] And it definitely isn't your fault.
[That's right. It's the darkness that should be blamed for all of this. But what exactly is it? Yuto's brows furrow even further as he tries to think of an answer.]
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[At first Yuto only observes Yuya in silence. Even when the other says he's fine, the tears falling down from Yuya's eyes concern him. Sometimes he really wishes he knew what his facetwin is thinking or feeling. Maybe it would've been easier if he did.]
There is no need to thank me.
[He doesn't feel like he's done anything to be thanked for. Isn't it natural to stay by your friend's side when their in pain? Yuto only wishes he could have done more.
There's still worry in his eyes when he speaks again.]
...And I'm not surprised. You should still get some rest.
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And you're back. I'm really happy about that. For a second, I thought it was like last time...
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At the other part Yuto frowns a little.]
You mean like when I lost against Yugo? [He pauses for a moment.] To be honest I was more than sure it would be the end for me this time... But I'm back. [Again.
He closes his eyes.]
...I'm glad I'm back.
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[They really are drawn to each other. Though it may be the fatigue getting to him that's making him talk about this... he thinks about it a lot when he's around Yuto, but it's usually too weird to bring it up when he's the only one remembering.]
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So that's what he meant. Yuto casts his gaze down.]
I wish I remembered. [His voice is quiet when he says that. He feel bad that he still can't recall anything from that time.]
Did it help you any when I showed up?
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During the Maiami Championship, Academia invaded, attacking duelists in the middle of the fray - they put the Knights of Duels into cards, and all of a sudden I saw your memories of Heartland - then it went black, and when I woke up my friends were holding me down. Four of them.
Mieru said she saw darkness in me. It was something separate from both of our souls, though...
[So, that's what he meant when he said he didn't want darkness. Painful and scary things happen when they combine, but he doesn't blame Yuto for them.]
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You... saw my memories?
[His memories of Heartland? Does that mean he saw the destruction? Or...
Yuto's soul was inside Yuya, so maybe he shouldn't be this surprised that his facetwin could see his memories. Still, it doesn't feel right, mainly because... he has just too many painful memories. There's no need to burden someone else with them.
But the other part makes him stop thinking about it. Darkness. So that's the darkness Yuya was talking about. And remembering how scared Yuya was of it, how much he didn't want it, Yuto frowns, guilt showing on his face.]
...It's all my fault, isn't it?
[It obviously is.]
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How could it be? Even if you were in control, you don't want to hurt anyone... you wouldn't do anything bad. I trust you.
But that darkness.... I have no idea what it is or why it's there. For all I know, it was in my soul before all of that happened. There were a few weird things even before then, and things I couldn't remember. Like, I still don't have any idea where Pendulum Summoning came from. I don't know if you knew this, but everyone said I discovered it...
[He hopes that Yuto won't keep feeling guilty over this. That wasn't Yuya's intention at all.]
So if it's anyone's fault, it's probably mine - I'm sorry.
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Hearing Yuya's last words, Yuto shakes his head.]
No. You have nothing to apologize for. [He says firmly, but his gaze is still filled with concern.] And it definitely isn't your fault.
[That's right. It's the darkness that should be blamed for all of this. But what exactly is it? Yuto's brows furrow even further as he tries to think of an answer.]